AKA 'random musings of a sleep-deprived mind who's excited about getting Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers Of Sky tomorrow but at the same time upset about getting attacked in the PCA IRC chat last night'.

But I didn't think that would fit.

Sooo anyway. I was just trying to stay awake and remembered how, over a year ago, I started reading a fanfic on FF.Net, called A Little Night Music. It's now really popular, has over 4000 reviews, and over a hundred chapters. Then I thought about finding out a year later that the names of my half-brother and sister are... Michael and Angela. The same as the first two MCs in ALMN. It's slightly creepy, but I take it as a sign that I should both find my half-siblings and continue reading the fic, no matter how much I struggle with its themes at times, no matter how much it makes me cry.

I hope my brother and sister see this someday. I hope they know about me and realize it's me talking. I hope they find out my name from dad - it won't hard for him to guess, after all - and find me. Because I'm too scared to contact them.

I love you guys, even though I don't know you yet. You're family and that's all that matters. I always wished for a sister, as far back as I remember.

... Why do I always go on a rant when I start thinking about them?

To state something actually relevant to something, I might be leaving the PCA sooner than expected. I'm easily upset and got attacked in the chat last night, so I've completely lost confidence in my ability to work with people. No chance of a drawing/comic/short story involving someone else's charas as well as my own if I'm too scared to talk to anyone, and that's the whole reason I joined - to work with people and make new friends. Working alone, it's just a pile of drawings with a vague theme, and I could've done that without joining the PCA.